don't forget:

Cannen is already bringing us more joy and excitement than I could have imagined.  I will admit that at first, the stress of having a newborn overshadowed the joys of having one.  I know that makes me sound like such a bad mom but it's true.  You can only prepare yourself so much for having a newborn baby in the house and all the changes that come with it so when it actually happens and you are responsible for a little person it is SO unbelievably overwhelming.  (ok, it still is totally overwhelming but it truly does get better and easier everyday)  But in the very beginning, I'll admit, that there were more stressful times than happy ones.  I was more frustrated and confused than I was happy to have this little man constantly relying on me for every little thing.  I've obviously never been a mom before so it's just absolute craziness when you get the baby home and start mommyhood.  

However, like I said, everyday it gets better and better and there are already SO many things about my little man that I never want to forget so I wanted to list them out so I can refer to them later in his life.  He shows a little more of his personality everyday which is remarkable for a 13day old.  He has little habits that make Eric and I laugh and he just grows to be more perfect everyday. 

 I have completely and irrevocably fallen head over heels for this little boy.

- He sleeps with his hands up by his face.  In my belly, everytime we'd get an ultrasound he would ALWAYS have his hands my his face so we NEVER got a good picture of his little face.  and even now, he still sleeps with his arms up and his hands either covering part of his face or in little fists by his ears.  It's really really cute.

- His swing.  He LOVES sleeping in his swing.  The swing isnt even plugged in or rocking him back and forth.  He just likes being in the swing and prefers to nap there.  We have spent probably half the nights since he's been home with me sleeping on the couch and him sleeping in his swing next to the couch because that's the only place he would sleep.  

- His carseat.  Hates it. The getting buckled in part. Not having it. 

- Diaper changes.  Hates them.  Ya know how moms always say there are 3 reasons that a baby is probably crying?-- They're hungry, they have a gas bubble/need to burp, or they have a dirty diaper.  Untrue.  Cannen would rather sit in his dirty diaper than have it changed. He has never cried because of a dirty diaper.

- This one may be TMI-- when it's time to eat, he literally turns into a wild man.  I pick him up, turn him on his side to breastfeed, and he opens his mouth wide as possible and starts flailing his head around and making pig noises until I guide him over and he latches on to me.  And from there he is the loudest eater EVER.  Eric has heard him from the other room before.  He swallows really loud and makes really loud breathing noises like he literally is afraid to take a breath for fear that the milk won't be there anymore if he stops sucking.  It just makes us laugh.

- He had his two week old checkup today and has gained 11oz since birth.  He definitely eats enough!

- His little feet are the cutest things I've ever seen.  I can't even handle his teeny baby feet.

- He LOVES sleeping on his belly up on your chest.  He curls his little legs under and sticks his butt out and buries his face in your chest and falls asleep.  There have been a few nights that the only way I could get him to sleep is to let him sleep on my chest and he'll sleep there all night long. It's really cute though-- he's definitely a snuggler.

- The way he looks in Erics arms.  Heart melting.  Eric has such big muscle-y arms and chest and Cannen literally looks teeny tinier than ever when hes snuggling with Eric.  It's amazing to watch Eric with him though... Thats probably the thing that I'll never ever forget and the image is burned into my memory.  Eric is SO good with him and talks to Cannen like he's an adult sometimes haha! It's really cute and I KNOW that I've definitely lost that battle-- Cannen will DEFINITELY be daddys little boy and want to be JUST like Eric and doing whatever Eric is doing as he starts getting older.  

I'm sure there are more but Cannen is waking up and ready to eat so I'll have to come back and add them later.  We are a blessed little family and so happy to wake up to this little man everyday. :)

Introducing: Cannen Eric!

Our baby boy is here! Finally! A week ago today I was getting all packed up and ready to go to the hospital to begin my induction.  It's crazy that that was only a week ago...

Thursday went smoothly.  We were admitted into a really comfortable, nice delivery room and the process began.  Around midnight my contractions started to get pretty strong but nothing too bad.  I was put on some medicine to help and that made me feel a ton better.  Around 3am, my contractions were pretty unbearable because they had started me on the pitocin so I requested my epidural.  After my epidural was in I felt incredible.... for a little while.  I slept for a while longer and had a decent morning.  Around 10am(ish?) things got really bad as my epidural was somehow not working.  My legs were numb and my belly was numb but it was just the skin that was numb- nothing else.  So as contractions and the pressure got more and more intense, I began to feel EVERYTHING.  From 10am until 3:35pm (when Cannen was born), I was in the most excruciating pain I'd ever felt.  Contractions came every minute or so and I was dilating well but I was stuck at 9 centimeters for the longest time.  They tried 3 different medications in my epidural to help with the pain and nothing worked.  It was the worst pain I had every experienced.  I was EXHAUSTED as well and began to get delirious.  I don't remember a lot of things within those 5 hours except being put on oxygen and being terrified everytime I would feel a contraction coming, just knowing how bad I was about to hurt.  Eric was there holding my hand and silently praying his way through each contraction.  He was the most amazing and supportive partner and coach through that whole afternoon.  He held my hand and kissed my forehead more times than you could count.  He helped me breathe and told me how much he loved me and how great I was doing.  I know I must have been a hot mess the whole time but he still made me feel pretty.  My mom was there too through everything except the actual birth when she left so it could just be Eric and I.  She was SO helpful too- drying my tear stained face and helping me breathe through the contractions and the pain.  She's obviously done this three times so she knew how to help and how to help alleviate some of my pain.  I don't know what I would have done without Eric and my mom.
Around 3pm-ish, I was finally 10cm dilated and it was time to push.  I was so so scared.  Knowing that I was about to feel every bit of this birth and knowing that I could be pushing for well over an hour or MORE before the baby crowned, and knowing that through all of that I'd still be experiencing the pain of the contractions every minute... It was terrifying. At this point I couldn't feel my arms or neck anymore because of how tense I my body had been the past 5 hours through all of those contractions.  I was told to push through every contraction and that's what I did.  It was by far the most awfully painful and horrendous experience I could ever imagine.  Had the epidural worked, I'm sure my story would be different. (The Dr explained to me that sometimes, for unexplained reason, a womans body will just simply reject the epidural.  Her nerves won't accept the medication and just the skin or certain parts of the lower body will feel the numbing. I couldn't believe of all the epidurals given everyday to laboring mothers, I got a dud. lol) Between pushing through contractions I was literally falling asleep even despite the amount of pain my body was in-- THAT'S how exhausted my body was.  Eric said I was mumbling random things and not making any sense.  I don't remember much about the pushing phase of the labor and I'm probably glad that I don't.  It was just awful.
Finally, at 3:35pm, Cannen Eric Waagner was born into our world.  They put him on my chest and I tried to swaddle him up as good as I could.  Through my tears I saw Eric's tears and a flood of relief came through my body as I heard his little boy cry.  SUCH a teeny little cry meant that the labor was over, I was done, and I had a beautiful son.
Weighing in at 8.8lbs and 20.5in, I had a pretty good size baby there! They handed him to me after cleaning him up and Eric and I got to look at our son.  He was pretty alert and awake and just looked up at us trying to take in his big world I imagine.  The sense of pride and love that I felt for that little boy is unlike anything I could explain.  He started off as nothing and he grew to be this little man, half me half Eric.  It's an amazing miracle.  After a bit, they took him up to the nursery because they were a little fearful that he was retaining fluid in his lungs.  His breathing sounded a little off to them but the Dr's werent too concerned.  After they moved me up to my recovery room I was reunited with my little boy again where we spent the next two days together in the hospital with Eric and tons of visitors-- just getting to know eachother a little better :)

Cannen is now 6 days old and 6 days cuter and 6 days more perfect if that was even possible.  It's been a long and sometimes rough week just simply figuring out how to handle a newborn.  I'm new at being a mommy, Eric's new at being a daddy, and Cannen is new at being a baby!  It's a learning experience for us all!  Night times have been hit and miss.  2 good nights, and 2 bad nights since we've been home.  Sleep is minimal but I somehow mostly get through the day with a smile on my face... but I know that's just God having his hand on our family through even the little things.  I've found motherhood to be the most insane feeling of love so far.  Something I've clearly never felt before. Eric has been the sweetest daddy and watching him with Cannen is by far my favorite part of everyday.  Cannen looks up at him and it melts my heart.  I thought it wasn't possible for me to love Eric more but watching him with Cannen and being a co-parent with him has made me grow to love and respect and need him more than I ever imagined... He was always a perfect husband and somehow so far he's naturally a perfect dad.  I came out to the living room the other day and Eric was sitting with Cannen, reading the bible with him.  In the hospital Eric told Cannen his first bedtime story- the story of how Jesus died for us and God's love for Cannen.  It's only been 6 days since he was born and I've already had so many deep heart moments that I'll never forget.
Sometimes I'm too much of a worrier and I know the sleep deprivation has gotten to me a bit too.  I worry that Eric and I's marriage will fall second to the baby and we could lose touch.  I worry that I wasn't ready to be a mom and I don't know what I'm doing.  I worry that I'll screw up and make a mistake.  I worry that Eric will become over stressed and home will be a place of chaos and tension instead of love and relaxation. All of these silly worries that I need to let go of and give to God and embrace a peace of heart about.  I know everything is going to be wonderful.  I know Eric and I have a love for eachother that exceeds any stress or trial that we could come to.  I know that as long as we pray and do our part to make God the most important part of Cannen's upbringing and life that Cannen will move mountains one day and be the kind of boy that the Lord wants him to be.  We've started this little family, we have no idea what we're doing half the time, but we have all the faith in the world that the happiest days of our lives are yet to come.  As a mom and a wife, I am SO in love with my two boys and I'm devoted to building myself into the best wife and mother that I can be for both of them.  It is by an insane amount of grace that I have the life that I do.  As my daily prayer life and relationship with the Lord grows everyday, I see more and more that God has had his hand in everything that's happened to Eric and I the past year or so and it's all turned out to be more than we could have hoped for.  Eric is the best thing that has ever happened to me and Cannen is the best thing that's happened to us.  ALL thanks and glory to God...


"She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
²⁷ She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
²⁸ Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
²⁹ “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
³⁰ Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised."  -Proverbs 31:26-31

Here comes baby boy...

Today is just a huge day of crazy emotions.

At 5pm tonight, Eric and I are going to the hospital where we'll spend our last night as a family of two!  At 7am tomorrow morning Dr. Mahoney will start my induction and if all goes smoothly, we'll be holding our baby boy by tomorrow evening!  It's crazy that the next time I sleep in my bed I'll have a baby boy in the bassinet next to me.  It's crazy that I'm going to be a MOMMY but I'm so so so excited to meet Cannen.  Holding him in my arms is a feeling that I can't even imagine right now.  I'm so excited and so anxious and so happy and just a whole host of emotions right now.  

Seeing Eric hold him will probably be the most special moment for me.  I have the most perfect and loving husband and when all is done and Eric has his baby boy in his arms for the first time, it will honestly be the most amazing moment.  I get emotional just thinking about it.  I will never love a boy to the capacity that I love Eric and Cannen... they are my whole world already.  

Eric is really excited too. I can tell its the kind of excitement where he doesn't quite know what to expect and he is anxious and seems a bit nervous too.  He is going to be the most incredible dad.  Granted, he's never changed a diaper and the thought of it legitimately freaks him out but I know he'll do great.  I keep telling him Cannens dirty diapers will be the cutest dirty diapers he'll ever see ;)  He's so loving and protective and supportive of me so I just know he'll kick that all into overdrive and be a perfect dad to our little boy.  He has every quality of an amazing father and role model and spiritual leader that God would want him to be for our son.  Cannen and I are the luckiest people in the world to have Eric as the most important person in our lives.

We're as prepared as we can be for the baby and at this point it's just a new experience for us, but part of it just hasn't even clicked yet that we're about to have this little man come in and run our lives.  Everyone always says being a parent is a love that you've never experienced or felt before and for Eric and I that's definitely true.  We don't know what to expect but we know it's going to be incredible.  God has been at work in our hearts big time the past 9 months.  Preparing us for the responsibility of parenthood and working to mature us in the ways that we'll need in order to be the best parents we can be for Cannen.  

After the longest 9 months of my life, I'm so ready to meet my little boy.  I can't wait to kiss his nose and fingers and toes.  I can't wait to hear him cry and feel him breathe on me.  I can't wait til he grasps my finger with his little hand.  I can't wait to see what color his eyes are.  I can't wait to get to know his little habits and to watch him sleep.  I can't wait to watch Eric with him and inevitably see Cannen grow up to want to be JUST like his daddy.  Not a minute has gone by in the last 9 months that I havent thought about the baby in my belly and wondered about him.  He wasn't expected and he began as a huge, stressful surprise, but he's grown to be the most special and amazing gift that I could ever ask for.  I wouldn't have gotten through the last 39 weeks without Eric and my parents and family and Eric's family.  We have more support and prayers coming our way than I could imagine.  We are so blessed and so lucky to have the most loving families and parents.  I will keep learning and hopefully grow to be an incredible mom, just like my mom is.  

This little boy is already the most loved baby in the world.  I can't wait to meet our son :)

** For those of you that have been asking/ for people wanting to come visit us in the hospital and meet baby Cannen, we'll be there accepting visitors this whole weekend!  If all goes according to plan and he's born by Friday evening, then anyone is welcome to come visit Saturday or Sunday! 

We are at Henrico Doctors Forest.  I don't know our room number yet obviously but you can call Labor and Delivery or the Womens Pavilion there and just tell them my name and they'll let you know :)   We would love to see yall and baby Cannen would love it too!


Here is a poem that my sister in law, Gretchen sent me.  I really loved and thought it was SO special so I thought I'd share.

Baby’s Choice

Did you ever think, dear Mother?
As the seeds of me you sowed,
As you breathed new life inside of me
And slowly watched me grow,
In all your dreams about me
When you planned me out so well,
When you couldn't wait to have me there
Inside your heart to dwell,

Did you ever think that maybe,
I was planning for you, too,
And choosing for my very own
A mother just like you?
A mother who smelled sweet and who
had hands so creamy white,
A tender, loving creature
Who would soothe me in the night?

Did you ever think in all those days
While you were coming due,
That as you planned a life for me
I sought a life with you?
And now as I lay in your arms,
I wonder if you knew
While you were busy making me,
I was choosing you.

38 weeks/the CRAZY past few days

     So we are officially 38 weeks pregnant and more ready than ever for this child to make his way into the world.  Except, I'll admit, after yesterday and the past couple days, I'm kind of getting really nervous!  I thought I was SOOO ready for labor and so ready to push him out but I'm starting to get worried and super nervous!  Maybe I'm okay with him staying in there a little longer.... I'm totally back and forth.
Anyway, here are the events of the past couple days. If not for your knowledge, then for me to be able to look back one day and recall this crazy end to our journey.

Thursday evening around 6pm I started having contractions.  Not real ones, just the annoying Braxton Hicks, pressure ones.  These started coming every 10 minutes and came through the night and through yesterday morning.  They never let up. So I called my Dr. and she said to call back if they started coming within 5 minutes of eachother.  She said to take a long walk, bounce up and down, do squats, eat something spicy-- basically try to throw my body into real labor contractions as opposed to the false contractions.  I started doing squats around the house and Personal Trainer Eric informed me that I was doing them wrong so he showed me the right way.  I tried out his method and ended up pulling my groin muscle.  Thanks for that, honey. SOMEONE didn't think that maybe a pregnant woman with 25 extra pounds on her front side can't do the perfect squat! haha So after my failed attempt at those, I decided to go on a loooong walk around the neighborhood to try and get gravity to work in my favor and force this baby out. I walked for about an hour and when I got home my contractions were timeable, within 5 minutes of eachother for about an hour.  I called the Dr, and she told me to come in and get monitored.  They put me on a machine to monitor my contractions and to monitor the babys heartrate.  My contractions were still minutes apart so I thought this might really be it, BUT they didn't hurt very much so it didn't seem like it could be the real thing at the same time.  However, the babys heartrate dropped to below 90 a few times (average heartrate at this time is between 120 and 160) so the Dr thought it might be good to admit me into Labor and Delivery and monitor him for a bit longer and monitor my contractions some more as well.  5 hours later, we were told that we could go home.  The baby was fine and my contractions were getting more painful but still not enough to make me dilate or be considered "real labor".  Frustrating? Ha.  Our ultrasound came back normal as well which made me feel better except my amniotic fluid levels which were average, but on the low side of average.  So where we stand now is that the Dr thinks he'll be here anyday! Ofcourse, no one, not even the doctor, could ever tell you for sure.  I have another appointment on Tuesday to check my amniotic fluid levels again and if they are lower she MIGHT induce me just to make sure the baby doesn't go into any stress.  If I still haven't had the baby by Tuesday AND she doesn't find it necessary to induce me then I will be the girl in bed crying and begging for Cannen to just PLEASE come out!

So here we are today.  10am Saturday morning.  Still having contractions every 5-7ish minutes.  For now the last 40 hours. Getting increasingly more painful but not unbearable.  Soooo maybe today is the day?? Not getting my hopes up, but still, that's hard to do.

my favorite pic ever :)  Cannen with his mouth wiiide open in a yawn.  and look at that little nose!  I can't wait to kiss this sweet baby boy.

36 weeks and 4 days

We are 37 weeks pregnant at the end of this week!  CRAZY!
I now go to the doctor once a week and will continue that until the baby comes.  Today my appointment went REALLY well as the Dr said that baby is all the way down (settled into the cervix), he's head down, 100% effaced and I'm about 1cm dilated!  Last week he was just head down so we made a lot of progress in the last 7 days! Hopefully I continue to progress at the pace that I am and baby comes soon! Alas, the wait continues for now.

Eric and I have been super busy lately just getting ready for all the things happening soon!  Eric starts his last semester of school this week and amen for that!  He would have been done back in 2010 but thanks to Marine bootcamp and his deployment he's had to miss 3 semesters of school, so he's finally able to finish up his last semester!  I know he'll do great but I'm going to have to be really good about giving him time to study and handling the baby myself so he can get his work done and etc.  Not to mention he'll still have drill work to do for the Marines so he's going to be a busy boy!  I can't stop thinking lately how thankful and how blessed I am to have such a hardworking, dedicated husband.  He truly wants the best for our family and he will do anything to make sure Cannen and I are provided for and he does it with a really humble heart and a smile.  He knows how crazy this semester is going to be but he doesn't let it get to him and he's excited to have a packed schedule during the day and a new son to come home to at night.  He's really just great and I find myself praying for him and thanking God for him more and more throughout everyday.  I don't deserve him and how much he puts up with and how much he loves me.

We were thinking about doing a maternity photoshoot but after more thought we've decided to just do a family newborn session which I'm SO excited about.  I've found some of the cutest examples of pictures and we found a great photographer so I'm getting really excited about that.  We're going to do it at home in bed which I think will just look super natural and comfortable.  We're in constant communication with the photographer giving her updates on the pregnancy because we're planning to do the shoot when Cannen is a week to ten days old.  We don't want to wait too long... if there's something I always notice it's that newborns only look like newborns for a few weeks!  It's crazy how a newborn is only so teeny and "new" looking for such a short time and then they're just full blown babies! But anyway, I'm really excited for that and I think it'll be SO perfect and cute.

I'm also recently more obsessed than ever with working out and eating right after this baby comes out.  Luckily I just naturally didnt gain excessive weight during the pregnancy but it's been SO annoying going to the doctor every week and logging my weight gain and not being able to do anything about it.  Most pregnant women can work out more during their pregnancy but the Dr told me back in first trimester that I'm not allowed to work out.  The most I can do is walk on the treadmill and tone my arms and other non-strenuous things. (This being because of the two strokes I had at the beginning of my pregnancy and my constant bad blood pressure).  It's totally fine ofcourse that I'm gaining weight and I know I need to gain excess weight to have a healthy pregnancy..... it's just a weird feeling at first to gain weight so fast and keep gaining for nine months!  Normally you'd be trying to go the other way and lose weight to be healthy! haha!  In any case, this is all just to say that I'm SO excited to pop this baby boy out and get to the gym and get back in real shape...and back into normal pre-pregnancy clothes!  <--- mostly that reason.  I'm determined to be in better shape after this pregnancy than I've ever been and I know I'll be able to do it.  Theres nothing like a pregnancy to make you miss certain things that you never thought you'd miss... like a sweaty gross gym session! ;)

Another exciting thingggggg:  My best friend, Desiree, is getting married exactly a month from today!!!  I couldnt be happier for her as she is already such a beautiful bride :)  Unfortunately her wedding is exactly a week after my duedate so this child needs to come out like now or atleast very soon so I can make the wedding!  I will honestly be heartbroken if I have to miss her wedding.  Either way, I'm just so excited for her and her WONDERFUL fiance, Tony.  They are a super fun couple and a super goodlooking couple too so I just know it will be a gorgeous wedding.  She's getting more excited everyday and I'm right there with her.  You'd think it was my own wedding with how excited I get sometimes... haha!

But anyway, thats about it for now!  Mostly our lives have just revolved around getting ready for baby Cannen and getting ready for Eric's last school semester.  As always, we are SO thankful for all the amazing people surrounding us and praying for us and getting excited with us for all of our upcoming adventures!  We have the best family and friends and I'm so humbled and blessed.

I know, I know-- every post I write is about this baby and my [perfect] husband.  But that just goes to show how a baby on the way literally takes over every part of your life.

I'm 33 weeks (34 at the end of this week) and things seem to be pretty normal! I go for my next Dr appt tomorrow and then my last ultrasound 2 weeks from now!  THEN I go to the Dr every week until this baby decides to pop out!  At my last appt Dr. Mahoney told me that she doesn't think I'll make it to my due date so judging with my motherly instinct, I'm going to just guess that he comes my 38th week.  Which would be awesome but we'll see!  However, NO girl in my family has ever given birth early so that's disheartening. haha!  Literally going back to my great grandmother, not one female on my moms side of the family has had their baby until AFTER their due date.  Now I know it's not a hereditary thing but there's got to be something to be said for a record like that!  I'm talking to my Dr tomorrow about getting induced if I end up running late after my due date (Sept 14th) so we'll see how it all plays out!

Eric and I had our baby shower this past Saturday which was such an incredible time.  My grandparents, mom, and aunt Lacy planned everything from the smallest decoration details to the incredible food and cute little games.  We decided to make it a co-ed shower which was the BEST idea I've had.  Having Eric there and all our men family and friends was so great and made it that much more fun.  Over 50 people came to celebrate little Cannen and it was the most humbling and special day to have so many people supporting us and loving us.  It took over an hour to open up gifts (everyone seemed to just go buck wild on baby Cannen) and he is now officially the most spoiled baby ever- both with material things and just with people who love him.  It was a truly perfect day :)  (some pics below)

I've also decided to concede and let Cannen follow his daddy's footsteps and be a Redskins baby.  ughhh.  This was a hard decision to come to terms with seeing as how I'm as much of a Cowboys fan as a girl can be.  BUT in the end, I figured this is his first son and he's going to be born right in the beginning of football season so he can be a little Redskins fan.... atleast for his first football season. ;)  He's ready to go with an authentic Moss jersey and a little Underarmor Redskins sweatshirt. Cannen will be the only thing about the Redskins that I find irresistable. ;)

And the countdown continues!  I'm exactly two months from my due date today and it's becoming a little too real and the anxiety is catching up with me!
We just got back from a week long vacation to Jersey last week which was SO nice.  We went with my family.  The beachhouse, the boat, the food, the weather-- everything was SO nice and so perfect.  It was our last vacation that we'll take before Cannen is born so I cherished it to say the least haha!  

Eric has been working at the Marine Corps unit still Monday thru Friday.  It makes for an early morning start for him but he gets home around 4 everyday and so that's nice.  I've been enjoying being home and not working though I still try to keep the house cleaned everyday and do the laundry and etc.  It's getting harder because it's literally a TASK to just get off the couch with my ever growing belly.  Plus, I'm constantly tired and suffering from third-trimester insomnia which has been rough lately.  I feel bad a lot because Eric goes and works hard all day and sometimes he comes home to a very pregnant lazy wife, still in her PJ's, laying on the couch or napping.  I feel like I'm not doing my part a lot and that makes me sad and a little guilty.  I try to cook him big healthy dinners every night though and atleast do a few nice things for him a day.  I don't deserve such a perfect husband.  Since I'm getting bigger and bigger its causing me to be sluggish this summer and Eric has been such a good sport about having such a boring wife lately.  I know he doesn't like sitting around with me and having to stay inside if it's over 90 degrees (which it has been almost everyday lately :(  But he's being such a good husband and a good supporter. Braxton Hicks contractions started about a week ago and I have one a day on average.  They are the WORST so I can't imagine what labor contractions will feel like! I try to block that image out.... haha  I'm just SO excited for this pregnancy to be over and to feel normal again.  Don't get me wrong, I LOVE having this sweet little boy inside of me and I fall in love with him more and more everyday, but- still- I'm not a fan of pregnancy itself. at allllll. haha  but like I said, just eight more weeks!


My baby shower is coming up which I'm SO excited about!!! Eric and I decided to do something a little bit different and make it a couples shower so he will be there as well and all the men in our life are invited too.  I wanted to make it less of a girly baby shower and more of just a big party for baby Cannen! It's going to be so fun and so many people are coming and it will just be such a good time.  Both my grandmothers and aunt and mama are planning it and between the 4 of them, I KNOW it will be the cutest most special baby shower.  I'll definitely put up pictures afterward :)


thats about it for this mini-update! If I think of anything else I'll always be sure to post!